[18 May 2004|12:42pm] [ mood | pleased ] My office was just invaded by a horrible horrible creature...a purse seller. She showed up with huge bags full of gorgeous purses and wallets. I tried to control myself, but the longer I looked the more I wanted one and Sharlene is a very bad influence. I couldn't just sit and watch her buy 4 bags and 3 wallets without doing something. So now I have added a new purse and wallet to my collection, but lost my gas money. And I'm going to need it soon, probably tonight, and I can't ask my parents. Oh well...hopefully someone will be around to help me push my car home. 1 comment|post comment

Only 3 hours 2 minutes and 4 seconds to go.... [04 May 2004|01:56pm] [ mood | amused ] YAY!!! The day is almost over, well not really, but close enough. Can't wait to get out of here and get some dinner, and just relax tonight. After last night's inablity to sleep, today will be a nice change. The total highlight of my day so far has been watching as my bosses glasses got run over by a car. And, yes, it is unfortunate that she wasn't wearing them at the time. But still it was highly amusing to watch, and her reaction was equally as funny. Sharlene and I had to hold eachother up we were laughing so hard. My boss is so senile and crazy she makes me laugh sometimes. Not often, but sometimes is better than not at all. All I keep thinking is that in 8 weeks everything will be better. Much, much better. For now what keeps me happy is working for the library and planning the summer. 2 comments|post comment

[28 Apr 2004|09:15pm] [ mood | guilty ] I am so stupid... *bangs head against wall* stupid...stupid...stupid 2 comments|post comment

[22 Apr 2004|04:42pm] [ mood | blah ] Work is evil. My boss is a total nut case...she's a nasty drunk, but without the alcohol. I don't understand how a woman like this actually owns a business. I predict that at some point next year this place is going to be closed. The psycho actually tried to throw out our paychecks...did she think I wasn't going to notice the lack of a paycheck? She makes me want to scream!! The only thing that's good about this place is my co-workers. They make coming to work ok, and at least we can make fun of her together. But I really don't know how much longer I'm going to last here. I really just can't handle it, especially when there are other prospects, but the thought of leaving is as scary as it is relieving. Oh well, its gonna take a lot of thought to figure out what I should be doing. And certain people aren't helping...the location of this job is a definate plus, but I just don't know if the proximity to him is enough to keep me here. It always depends on the day...when there are a lot of things going wrong it wouldn't matter where this place was as long as I wasn't there. *sigh* Oh well, not much I can do about it at the moment. She's screaming that she's gonna kill someone and I'm bored out of my mind watching the clock and wanting to leave. I'm totally leaving at 5:30 today...definately not pulling more than an 8 hour day. Not that I have any exciting prospects for tonight, or tomorrow night, or even this weekend for that matter...I can always keep my fingers crossed that something will come up get a chance to do something other than sit in my house. Well nothing exciting is really happening...and I should probably try to finish up whatever work needs to get done that way I can leave early. post comment

[21 Apr 2004|05:53pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | some jazz cd ] Between my head exploding and things going wrong all over the place I just want to curl up under my blankets and stay in bed for the next week. Expecially since this will probably be a lonely, boyfriendless week for me :( So I think I'll just hide until I see him again...hiding is always good since it means I wouldn't have to go to work... 2 comments|post comment

[19 Apr 2004|01:03pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | My crazy boss screaming about something.... ] "The true New Yorker secretly believes that anyone living anywhere else has to be, in some sense, kidding" -John Updike post comment

[06 Apr 2004|02:43pm] [ mood | satisfied ] [ music | Love Jones soundtrack ] I hate days that seem to drag on forever...I want out of this office right now!! Not that I don't like work, I do, but when I feel like I've been sitting in the same spot for hours and I look at the clock and its only been 15 minutes I go crazy. I feel like I should be on my way to dinner instead of having to sit here for another 3 hours and 15 minutes...I need a vacation. I was spoiled this weekend, now all I want is a very long vacation... Other than my insanely long day, I'm feeling pretty good. I've worked out all the troubles I've been having with my bank account and I'm almost up to $1000 thanks to my parents, my credit cards and various other bills are all paid off and a just finished fighting with a stupid agency who was trying to charge me $70 for a book that not only did I not order, but even if I did I never got it. After months of begging my parents for money and a year of paying for someone else almost everyday and totally draining my funds, I'm back to normal. That makes me feel much better. Soon I can go on a much needed shopping spree for myself, and still have money for gifts for all the birthdays and other stuff coming up :) Oh well...back to work for me, unfortunately. But now at least its only 3 hours to go! post comment

[01 Apr 2004|04:58pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Yesterday was great. My boss didn't show up at work until 5pm (she's supposed to get there at 11am) which means I didn't have a thing to do all day except relax and talk to my coworkers. When she finally did show up she's giving me a list of things to file which was annoying because she thinks she needs to tell me something 5 times before I'll remember, it doesn't matter that I write it all down the 1st time she says it. But then I hear a knock on the window and when I look up its my boyfriend. I go to say hi and he hands me a dozen gorgeous roses. My boss thought it was so sweet and romantic that she had to meet him, at which point she went on and on about how people write books about a romance like this. But then she let me leave a 1/2 hour early. At which point he gave me another surprise and took me out to dinner. Mmmmmm....gooey chocolatey marshmallowy goodness....and then it was back home to watch The Dark Crystal (yet another surprise!) and just spend the night relaxing. My poor father got harassed to no end for not getting my mom flowers enough. I am so lucky...last night was wonderful...although I wish I remembered what we talked about when he got home. I slept through most of the phone call, although some of its starting to come back to me. Oh well..I just can't wait for this weekend...only 28 more hours!! And then I need to start making plans to see the rest of my friends...I misses you peoples... And for whenever you get around to reading this...I love you sweetheart... post comment

Still procrastinating..... [02 Mar 2004|11:40pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | "Waiting for Love" - Pink ] Your an ice dragon! Congrats! Out of all the dragons, you are most powerful but do not like to show it. A rare and special creture, you have artistic style and are great at expressing yourself. You think friends and Familly are the most important, and are a hopeless romantic. But of course, as ice goes, you can be a little cold or harsh at times. But not to worry, you always apoligize later! What elemental dragon are you? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

[01 Mar 2004|09:18pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | "Unwind" - Pink ] I should really be doing something productive with my time...but I'm bored...and frustrated...so taking quizzes is the best thing to do i guess... You're a Glass of Wine! What Type of Alcoholic Beverage Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Your A Dragon! Whether your the fire, electric, or ice dragon, you are very powerful and wise. Fire Dragons usually live in caves, elctric dragons live in valleys, and ice dragons live in mountain tops. A dragon represents wisdom, magic, love, grace, power, intelligence, determinotion, hounesty, and freedom. You tend to be a little explosive when your angry, so aa dragon can cuase lightning storms, blizzards, or heatwaves. Dragons are solitorey creatures, or lay live together, just not near humans. Whichever dragon you are, you certaintly are a rare mythical creature. What Mythical Beast are you? brought to you by Quizilla Ok...now I'm even bored with taking quizzes...I wish I could get out of here and do something. I guess its time to do what I'm supposed to. All this looking for a job is really making me hate computers. post comment

[26 Feb 2004|12:38am] [ mood | jubilant ] [ music | "If I Am" - Nine Days ] Today was a good day. Those don't happen too often, I'm usually so stressed I can't see anything but the bad. But today really was a calm and pleasant day...well it had a number of bad spots, but looking back on it right now all I seem to really remember is everything that made me smile. Except for one little insignificant person who calls himself my friend...he says he's the greatest friend anyone could ever want because he always puts himself last. What is it with guys and always playing the martyr?? I wouldn't consider this person a wonderful friend...maybe he was at one point but he definately isn't anymore. I don't understand why some people feel the need to pretend to be something they aren't...no one expects people to be the best friend in the world..to go above and beyond what is generally expected. I wouldn't think less of him if he wasn't the "perfect" friend. But now he pretends that I owe him the world because of how wonderful and giving he is...when in reality he is a self-obsessed callous prick. Ok...must stop that...I wanted this to be a happy post because tonight made up for whatever annoyance I had. It had a rocky start, but overall it was great. Nothing special happened...it was just the normalness itself that made me feel good. Having dinner and just laying down to watch TV and relax together made me realize how lucky I really am. I don't have to try to make him like me...he already loves me for who I am. I don't know what it was about tonight, but when I got in my car to head home I couldn't stop smiling. I am just ridiculously happy right now. post comment

[21 Feb 2004|02:14pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | "Detective" - No Doubt ] Heart of Glass What is Your Heart REALLY Made of? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! [19 Feb 2004|02:26pm] [ mood | stressed ] Unfortunately that doesn't make me feel that much better. I need to really scream and throw things and make things explode to feel better. And I can't do any of that cause I don't want to scare the neighbors. So I'm stuck here all stressed out and no way to get rid of any of it. I can't wait for tonight so I can get the hell out of this place and see friendly faces. 2 comments|post comment

Mmmmm....chocolate.... [11 Feb 2004|02:12pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | "Are You Gonna Go My Way" - Lenny Kravitz ] Yesterday was great...didn't do too much...actually didn't even leave the house once we got there, but still had an awesome time just hanging around the house with my boyfriend. He taught me how to make chocolate covered strawberries...and didn't yell at me when I started licking the spoon before we were done. Oh the wonderful chocolate *sigh* I think I might go get eat a few more of them. I actually can't believe how many we ate, especially considering we had a pretty huge lunch and dinner too. But it was nice being alone for awhile, even if all we did was watch a movie...I have a whole new appreciation for Can't Hardly Wait now...especially when its on in French. Not much else is new, but yesterday was probably one of the nicest days I've had in awhile...now I really can't wait until Saturday. If it's even half as nice as yesterday was it'll be the best Valentine's Day I've ever had. Well off to eat some more chocolate covered strawberries...at this rate I won't be able to fit into any of my clothes on Saturday...oh well I guess I'll just have to wear his shirt again ;) post comment

[09 Feb 2004|01:33pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | Bohemian Rhapsody ] Lately I've been thinking about how many things are different now than they were a year ago. I miss a lot of people. I hate that we're seperated by a distance that was never there before. I want to be able to take a short walk and see my best friend. I want to be able to just spend hours talking, watching movies, hanging out, and running out to do something whenever we felt like it. Thinking about how we can't do that anymore depresses me. Now we have to make plans days in advance and even then we only get to really have dinner together and maybe a movie. We have other things and people in our lives now that take up our time and most of the time it doesn't get to me, but lately I just wish I could go back to a time where the only distance was a few feet instead of a few miles. When the people we spent the most time with were eachother. I've been told that I can't go back to that and I know I can't, but that doesn't stop me from missing it. And I don't really know why I've been thinking about it now. Maybe it's because of Valentine's Day and I've just been remembering a lot of my past ones. And although I should be focusing on this weekend and spending it with my boyfriend I can't help but think about the year we watched Real Genius. I'm looking forward to this weekend, but a part of me wishes I could just curl up on the couch, eat chocolate and bitch about boys with my best friend. I miss that. That isn't to say I don't miss my other friends. I do...I miss them a lot, but I've just been going through my things and my mind has really been on this for awhile. Ok...enough of feeling sorry for myself...time to go shower and then get out of this place for awhile...I'm getting a little claustrophobic. 3 comments|post comment

I can't help but be happy.....even when I'm sad..... [29 Jan 2004|08:03pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | "Iris" - The Goo Goo Dolls ] "Never Saw Blue Like That" - Shawn Colvin Today we took a walk up the street And picked a flower and climbed the hill Above the lake And secret thoughts were said aloud We watched the faces in the clouds Until the clouds had blown away And were we ever somewhere else You know it's hard to say Chorus And I never saw blue like that before Across the sky, around the world You've given me all you have and more And no one else has ever shown me how To see the world the way I see it now Oh, I, I never saw blue like that I can't believe a month ago I was alone, I didn't know you I hadn't seen or heard your name And even now, I'm so amazed It's like a dream, It's like a rainbow, it's like the rain And somethings are the way they are And words just can't explain And I never saw blue like that before Across the sky, around the world You've given me all you have and more And no one else has ever shown me how To see the world the way I see it now Oh, I, I never saw blue like that before And it feels like now, And it feels always, And it feels like coming home I never saw blue like that before Across the sky, around the world You've given me all you have and more And no one else has ever shown me how To see the world the way I see it now Oh, I, I never saw blue like that before Oh, I, I never saw blue like that post comment

[28 Jan 2004|05:59pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | Interview With the Vampire....in french.... ] I usually love snow, but today it just made me feel so disgusting. Looking outside made me wish I was miles away...far from everything around here. I hated that I was stuck inside...alone. I wanted to be with someone...the one person that I don't get to see nearly enough of. Instead I got to clean off the car and go by dinner and sit alone the entire day wishing I wasn't. I can't wait for this weekend. post comment

[26 Jan 2004|10:27pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Can't Hardly Wait ] Life has been a roller coaster lately. As soon as everything seems to go up it comes crashing back down again. At least most of it comes after a nice long break from stress and drama of any type...I think it was at least 2 weeks... I realize though that most of this has to be my own fault. I get so happy and up about some things that as soon as the smallest thing goes wrong or I get disappointed it just spirals out of control and I get really depressed. People's words hurt me more than they should...they make me think things and worry about things I know to be stable and right. And I expect too much. I want people to know what I want to hear...what I need to hear...what I want to do...I can't bring myself to form the words to tell them what I'm thinking. It all goes back to the fact that if I tell them then it doesn't mean as much since they didn't think of it on their own. On the up side though...I don't think I've been this happy in years. I can't believe how lucky I am to have what and who I do. I think about it and all I can do is smile and look forward to what comes next. I'm looking forward to tomorrow now because I know that it's going to be great. I am so excited about everything I just wish that it wasn't ruined sometimes by stupidity. 1 comment|post comment

[18 Jan 2004|11:03pm] [ mood | guilty ] [ music | "Tourniquet" - Evanescence ] You are one of the few out there whose wings are truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and divine, you are one blessed with a certain cosmic grace. You are unequalled in peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of Light your wings are massive and a soft white or silver. Countless feathers grace them and radiate the light within you for all the world to see. You are a defender, protector, and caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver of the wrong, chances are you are taken advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often. But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in everyone and so this mistreatment does not make you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will try to help misguided souls find themselves and peace. However not all Angelics allow themselves to be gotten the better of - the Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting for the sake of Justice and protection of those less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever change - the world needs more people like you. *~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~* brought to you by Quizilla post comment

Bored...so very very bored... [11 Jan 2004|04:04pm] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | "Don't Let Me Down" - No Doubt ] 'Fudged in the Head' PLEASE VOTE!!! What Type of Lunatic are You? (With Cool Pics!!) brought to you by Quizilla You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time. What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two important sides. There is your strong, powerful side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows that along with the good, you also can see bad, which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz) What Sound Are You?(now w/ pics) brought to you by Quizilla post comment

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